my eyes slowly open an inch off the floor
im laying right in front of your front door
a concusion in my head
but being this close to you
is the happiest ive been
in a month. (maybe two?)

the world has an ugliness
the lights are too blinding
wanting to reach out less and less
the trust in me is dying
the only way i ever got through it
was with only you beside me

pick myself up, brush the leaves off
light a cigarette, spit and cough
kick a bit of the broken bottle
turn away and walk a few blocks

easier to just walk away
then to hear your voice break
i would fuckup an apology
and you would scream at me

if you only knew the things i do for you..

stopping by the first gas station i find
i grab the cheapest bottle i can buy
leave the store and walk outside
make like a dove and drink to the sky

make my broken way back home
with each poison kiss i forget
the way you whispered
like subtle enchantments
and with each subtle word
you engraved your name

the world has an ugliness
the lights are too blinding
wanting to reach out less and less
the trust in me is dying
the only way i ever got through it
was with only you beside me