no penitance

theres no penitance, past or present tense
stomach much tenser than a coil of snakes
poised to blame the first mistake
on anyone innocent enough to wonder by
but theres error in these ways
a glitch from the bottom to the top.
theres an opponent in my way
and im just learnning how to stare him square
doesnt matter if you try
his voice a trick, as it is mine
medicated meditations take me
practice opening my third eye

Sparrows Fall

Running on so little sleep

Falling in love with all the ruts ahead of me

Stumbling into shelves and beams

No one call a doctor to offer a remedy

I’m so dizzy I just can’t see

I keep it this way to escape reality

In this way I am free…

As free as a bird in the air

In the constant concrete clench of gravity

Pulling, gnawing with its precious teeth

This is the way the world is and forever will  be

No matter how high I dare

No matter how my doubt may shriek

My determination can’t suffer confusion

Though suffer the child it may be…

So I'll break through tomorrow 

with a sense of urgency

I'll take down my pain, ego and greed

Wake up on the sunny side of someday

a new and better me